Imagination

This semester seems not too busy, but still need to catch up some assignments...Maybe it's because of group project.

At least I don't have to worrying too much things compared to last semester. All works are divided to each course-mates, so I will just do my parts besides learn something new for Autodesk Maya from them.

Just for this semester, I'm absolutely sure for that......

Next semester, it will be the individual project......

Not just a project, but it will also become my portfolio in future......

I do hope everything will go well for this and next semester...................(=___=)

But I never afraid too much, because I know I have a lot of great and 'crazy' friends that willing help and support each other...

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Recently, I pretty like to imagining things again...

Maybe it's because of storyline that I gone through from game......

I even started to sketch some drawings for my own ideas based on that storyline concepts...

Fantasy imagination...Good things that I wish to happen? The dreams that I want to pursue?

I know I need to move myself forwards to some things...

I know some are just becoming my inner happiness for a short time...

I even know that God has His own reasons to make me walk that path...

But, I think daydreaming and imagining fantasy are the gifts that God give us, too...Despite, many great designers and artists are born in this world...

And I think it's would never be hurt to think something I love for sometimes...(smile)

Malaysia TM Internet So Boleh...

Damn u TM...If u so precious with the wireless modem, then DUN OFFER ME UPGRADE PACKAGE WIT WIRELESS MODEM IN 1ST PLACE!!! AND PLEASE MAKE SOLUTION INSTEAD OF JUST TALK AND DUN TAKE THE RESPONSIBILITIES!!! SOME MORE THAT TIME I'M AT THE MOST BUSY PERIOD FOR MY ASSIGNMENTS, JUST TO GET BAD MOOD FROM U ALL!!

Last few week, they offer me through phone for upgrading 1M to 2M with only pay extra RM10 (Almost forgot, their way of talking is almost like the upgrade is automatically on, not asking us whether wan to accept or not) At first, I dun wan that, but after they said they will give one wireless modem to me, then I thought at least it was a good offer, and I accepted.

Few days later, one technician came and install the wireless modem (I also freak out with that guy's 'nice' attitude.....==) Then nxt day, he suddenly came back and said he MUST take that modem back, and he said I'm the one who wan to change to fixed modem (EXCUSE ME??? WHO U THINK U TALKED TO??? FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE, I NV SAID SUCH A WORDS, IDIOT!!!) We refuse to let him do so before we go to service center and check the whole things. Then he was like 'Ah Loong', almost called my phone everyday (Walau eh...Damn annoying...><)

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Went to Service Center for twice...Same thing happened in the end...Different people, but same damn attitude. They only said they could do nothing bcoz it was actually THE AGENT gave the offer. WALAU!!! What kind of communication language between tm and agent use??? What agent done is nothing to do with tm???

WHO U THINK WE R??? SO FREE TO LAYAN U ALL!!! TM PROBLEM BCOME OUR PROBLEM!!! So called service, so called technician service, and now we, the consumer bcome victims...Somemore I aldi cannot change to wireless modem package as this one has 1 year contract...

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In the end, they just throw the responsibility back to us. We could do nothing now except continue with the offer, or kena denda if we cancel the thing...S**T...

(* The offer is actually about upgrade 1M to 2M with just RM10 [Also got other type depends which speed u use] Once u activate it, u will have 4 months free of charge, then only start pay RM10 on 5th month. What the agent never told us is that actually it need refer the combo or package u take. Exp, I took Streamyx combo with free fixed modem...Thus I still need use fixed modem, or else I should pay for getting wireless modem)

I also need pay part of responsibility as I didn't really asked the details on that package. I truly learn the lesson and their 'kind' services. U might take my family's RM10 each month for 1 year, but after I graduate nxt year, get ready to say BYE BYE to my account and me. I would nv use any TM service as long as I would...

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Sorry for the improper words and languages...But I'm can't keeping too much those anger inside me, or else it sure would exploded some day...

Reason and Path

Two months I never update my blog. Am I that busy? Or I'm only made myself busy? Or I just lazy to update it?

It doesn't matter......(^v^)

Though I'm not fan of Joker, but I just simply like his quote: "Why so serious?"

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My 4th semester Uni study started more than half month...Even semester break had passed last week...Still, it is not a 'break' at all, as usual...

Start my 3D character and environment modelling assignments

Now, I only understand: Every great 3D animations pay a great price behind the scenes...@.@...I really can't finish it without tutorials, thanks to my kind lecturer who special made a tutorial videos to us......^^

Now, I have to speed up myself to finish all assignments in time...

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Maybe I was quite being tension by assignments...

Maybe I was facing some problems at the same time...

Or even maybe I heard too much things from my surroundings...

Recently, I keep start thinking about many many things

Well, not the good things...but from nothing to 'the things' stuffs; now that's no good for sure...

The only similarity with the thinking is 'Why' and 'If'

'Why I couldn't choose this...', 'Why I have to gone through this...', 'If I was this, maybe I can that...'

Why, Why, Why......One simple word can be the killing weak point to our spirit...(T_T)

But, I thank you Oh Lord Jesus...for being watching and taking care of me...

Today, I took the 'Daily Bread' to relax my for few minutes. Actually, I was searching the page for today dated issue...I glance through really fast...page by page until suddenly one title just simply attracting me...

It's just clear as crystal - "Brown and blue eyes"

I read through the issue, and it was about how a lady realized why she was being born with brown eyes; not crystal blue eyes as she wished for her whole life...However, she managed to spread God's words in India without facing much problem...Maybe because she was more welcomed by them as she is 'brown eyes' rather than 'blue eyes'

Now, she understands that there is His own reason for every path that He created for every people...

And so do I for now on...and even more...

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"If you give up your life for my sake, you will save it." (Matthew 16: 25)

"Acknowledge that the Lord is God! He made us, and we are His." (Psalm 100: 3)

I still may not understand the reason that God created such the path for my recent and future life...but I do believe...and even stronger: that when I believe in Him, I'll get more than I wish for.

Amen!

人? 非也；尸? 非也

三个月，说快也不快，说慢也并不慢。

五天的新年过完了，假期也就这么即将过去了。

即将来的，自然就是大学新学期、新功课，仍不变的朋友们。

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回想起来，三个月做了些什么？

老实说，我确实变得相当懒散……也许是被功课搞得全身绷紧吧！不是吃饱，就是上网或画CG/Digital Painting 加玩PlayStation 2。

只是，最近我好多身边的东西偏偏在这时间都突然变得有问题……

上个月中，手提电脑出现了‘即时抗议’，时不时就突然出现‘昏倒’问题（自动切断电源）而被逼送回工厂维修；一星期后，连PlayStation 2 也‘一病不起’，净是乱刮花光碟，搞到也不得送去修理。前者需要三个星期，后者要两个星期…………等于差不多一个月没有FaceBook，没有Digital Painting，没有网络，没有电子游戏！

天啊！全都可说是我生活中不可断了的‘零食’呀!!!

结果，自己活像个灵魂全散了的‘非人非尸’家伙……早上做完家务坐在椅子发呆，下午一骨碌趴在床睡（平时再怎么闷也决不会午睡，除非格外疲倦）晚上做有的没的，然后比平时早些睡觉（平时宁找‘夜猫’也不愿找‘周公’ =p）

想看书，周公碰巧来拉我去他家做客；去外面散步，吸的是一堆烂空气和超热的阳光…………

不知道是纯粹想建议让我打发时间，还是作为一位母亲实在看不过眼我这人活得连猪都不如的生活（笑），她要求我为她画一幅宫崎骏的著作——龙猫。这才想起来那个置放在书橱内已久的油画板，只是没有灵感要画些什么，这次也许的确是一个机会用它了。

起码，等待‘他们’归来的热切心情也就这样减少些了……

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碰巧，随着新年将来临，我和家人出门购物逛街的次数也比平时多。

然后，十二、一月值得看的电影也多，时间还稍微过得充足不少………

3 Weeks Count Down

It's been awhile since I upload my blog....

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August I started my new semester in University again.

As usual, started rushing assignments, but thanks God this semester is not busy as crazy as last week.

But this month, our real battles start again...T_T

All final assignments come at the same time. Few of them have to submit next week...

And I don't know why...This semester I'm just can't get myself into all assignments; in another words: I'm really lazy to do them...

But thanks to my classmates aka friends...They always give me supports and crazy laughing so I can go through all these tiresome feelings...

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Joined a contest in my university. At first I thought I barely could make one as I still have bunch of assignments in my hand.

But I did it...thanks again to some of my friends who also joined this contest. I painted it the fastest time (around 16 hours. Usually I only can finish a painting more than that time)

Guess have to hang in there for 3 more weeks, then I can have my Real holiday...\(>.<)/

Things that can't return...

After almost one month of rest, it was almost return to school...nothing much feelings, besides reunite with my classmates, then I kind feel down when think about last incident......

First time ever I felt part of friendship between some friends totally burnt down...I know I couldn't stay with them like ever before, I was like betrayed them...

I know words for billions won't revive these friendships with them, but if there is a choice, I won't choose to do this...

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I know I just simply throw out 'no' to them, upset them......but did they know that I was always almost quarrel with my parents for this moving out for entire semester?

I know they let me be the first for the whole things, and I was the fool that everything just 'yes' without double check......but did they really know that time my mind was totally full? I was too busy for school projects to go when you all go check without me?

I know I just run away like that......but everythings was just keep upset my parents. Location was not good, house was too old for that price, and one thing I actually never tell them...lights at my room was actually broken out, and house owner seem never check it before put it into rent house, how would this kind of owner give convience for me to stay?

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I don't want explain anything else now as I also know they won't listen to me anymore. Both sides have their own stands and opinions, so it will be useless to argue now...

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Here I just want tell them:
Yes, I'm also the one who want to quit besides respect my parents' decisions as they are the one who pay the money.
No matter how much u all hate me now, I really didn't purposely to hurt you all from deep inside my heart.
I tried not to upset both my family side and friend side when trying to solve this things, but I fail to do so......

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Friendship torn down for my first ever life time, I couldn't save it...

My 1st and Last Book

Finally, my 2nd year 2nd semester finally put into ending......

For my 2nd year 2nd semester, my class had one assignment for Conceptual Design. We have to create pictures, description and layout based on story that we created by our own. Then we combined all together to make it become like an illustration book.This was the most crisis moments that I ever had since I started my life in Uni. I dun know when I had started to sleep at 3am everyday, even in weekends...

However, the presentation went well and I was happy with the results until something unexpected happened...After the presentation, we have to submit all illustrations that printed out and bind them into a book. The lecturer helped us to take all of them to a shop somewhere in Serdang.

BUT, yesterday the lecturer suddenly just told me that mine had problem.Well, I kind of motionless as I wished that it was a joke. Yet, it wasn't.....Dun know which crew in that shop that was such 'idiot', such 'fornication under consent of the king'...they put it in wrong direction...

WALAU eh!!! I cut all white borders in every printed pages except one side for binding, I put page numbers in every pages, I even put properly how should they bind...and how they are such 'busy body' to turn them in another direction?!!!

Now my back cover become cover, and cover with title becomes back cover.

COME ON MAN!!! COMMON SENSE!!! Who would such idiot to see synopsis before they looked at title???

Anyway, as long as lecturer understood the situation, then it's alrite for me...(cheer up, gul...)